in a state of unrest
wanting to talk to you, to scream, to beat upon your chest
is it all in my mind, these thoughts and feelings
i know it’s me, not you
you blame yourself, I blame myself, how will we ever get through
I don’t know how to think, how to get out of this mire
should I tell you how I feel, how this is killing me, my heart is on fire
each second without you, thoughts are clouded, soul befuddled
and I talk myself out of it, for myself I am counseled
and yet still, no matter what I do, jealousy abounds
where sensitivity and fondness should be found
there are tears in its stead, but of my own volition, I still pine
for you every waking moment, and in my thoughts so alone, please send me a sign
that you love me, think of me, long for me still
or has this all been against your will….
My Seryniti 